Monday, 10 December 2012

Whoopsie!

Holy crap guys!

I just came back to this silly little page and saw that my page views have shot up! Mainly due to my Harley cosplay and a few other outfits people are obviously interested in! I'm flattered!

I'll try to get posting again soon!

It's been a bit of a hectic time you see, i've moved to university and forgotten all about this blog, i'm sad to say! But i will try my hardest over the festive season to resume posting!

Thursday, 23 August 2012

Ha-Ha-Harley

Hello!

In what seems to be a rather drastic change of pace - and more notably, topic. I'm here to provide you with photographic evidence of what has been a small session of me, attempting to get my cosplaying shit together.

As a result, have some photographs.


This one was a recreation of the classic 'Dontcha Wanna Rev Up Your Harley?' scene,  the difference being that my night gown is black, hers was red, but seeing as black, red and white are her colours (much like they are mine.) I figured she'd probably have a black one lying around too. Well that is just my excuse until I can find a nice red one.

The editing has caused some blurring I hadn't noticed until after i'd saved it to jpg, so i'm afraid i'm rather stuck with it now...

Whilst i like the expression, I don't like the way the cowl sits, so I'll be getting a new one, as the curls are all wrong... and I'm becoming aware of my need for a latex mask, as oppose to my current makeshift one, but all in good time.


This one I like, because you can't see the string of the mask, and I just quite enjoy the face I'm pulling... for some reason, it pleases me. The cowl still bugs me though... but oh well!

I just had to :') 

I'll keep you updated if any more follow!

I have very little to say about these, except for the faults I feel need correcting really... anyway... even though no one ever does, I still encourage you to leave comments, share, whatever you wanna do, or don't wanna do :')

Seeeeeya!


Wednesday, 22 August 2012

A quick note!

Just to let everyone know, my best blogging hours tend to be horrifically unsociable, so I'm going to attempt to schedule them to post at regular points so that my blog has more frequent updates than just the occasional rant at 2:30am :')

See y'all whenever!

Posted from my Ipod.

Slut-Shaming, Rape Culture, And Sexism Against Men.

Over the past few years, growing older from a girl, through puberty, and slowly becoming what I believe (but don't hold me to it...) is a woman, I've noticed a few things, things I'd like to talk about, because they need to be talked about. -Please note, growing older does not always mean growing up.

Slut-Shaming

In our culture words are thrown around and we never consider their value, or the effects they have, we're told from the youngest age that 'sticks and stones may break our bones, but words can never hurt us.' and then as we age we're told that 'actually yes, words can hurt you, SPEAK OUT AGAINST BULLYING' and then later on we're told 'You might not like what we're saying, but you sure as shit better not start complaining about it.' because apparently that's 'whiny' and 'attention seeking'. 

So what are we supposed to believe? 

Well, I can't speak for everyone, certainly not, but I can speak for myself, loud and clear, when I say that when something is said to you, that is unfair, offensive, discriminatory, racist, sexist, homophobic (you get the idea, basically... not good.) you have every right to fight back. I'm not talking "Oh they disagreed with you on what restaurant is nicest, or they liked a show or movie you didn't." I'm talking legitimately offensive, disgusting things, things that attempt to make you feel like less of a person, things that imply you are less important or something to be hated just for being the way that you look, sound, feel, act, dress, and just the way you are.


(Now, I want to say ahead of time, this won't be a "DOWN WITH THE MEN" blog post. Far from it. If anything, I'd like to highlight the fact that men do have to deal with a lot of shit women deal with and are expected to "take it like a man.") 

Right, that out of the way, let's continue... I saw a video that a girl made on youtube calling out the behaviour of a fucked up commenter, who commented all sorts of shit about her, sexist, threatening, creepy comments but a lot of what he said was to do with the fact that in the video she was wearing a bikini top, and that this made her a slut... She rightfully defended herself about this.. but what bothered me in the video slightly more than the terrifying reality that this weird ass nutjob existed, was the fact that in the video she says "I'm not a slut, but I am aware there are sluts out there, you can't get away from the fact that there are sluts everywhere." 

Now by sluts, I can immediately make the assumption she means...


and


or


The dictionary definition of the word slut is as follows: 

"A person, especially a woman, considered sexually promiscuous."

For some reason, we as a society, men and women, have this idea that women who have casual sex, or are a bit of a flirt, or who don't like to settle down, and prefer to just have no strings attached sex from time to time are somehow lesser beings. You rarely hear the phrase 'slut' thrown at a man (though I am aware that the term 'man whore' has been used, but everyone knows it is not as popular as 'slut' is when used towards women.) We have this concept that strippers, or prostitutes, women who have casual sex, or just women who dress 'provocatively' (though this phrase is of course, subjective.) are some how unimportant, stupid, empty headed blobs of carbon that wander around this earth making it a worse place to be, just by being. 

Of course that's a very stupid thing to assume. 

Personally, I have nothing against girls who have casual sex, in fact sometimes I envy them, not because I want to have casual sex, but because they are confident enough to ask for no strings attached sex, they don't feel as though they simply must have a boyfriend, or be married by 25, they just go about their lives, they have casual sex as and when the opportunity they feel like taking arises, and they just carry on again, unhindered by societies judgements. These women have done nothing wrong (provided of course that their casual sex isn't part of some affair or attempt to split an otherwise happy couple apart) so why do we insult them with such a derogatory term?

So why is it that this is such a bad thing? I don't want to have casual sex, not because I think it demeans women, or because I don't think men deserve my vagina 'casually' or even because i'm waiting for 'Mr Right', but because I just don't want to. I don't feel comfortable with sex at all at the moment, and maybe, that'll change, or maybe it won't, but regardless of what happens, whether I grow old and die having had a mile long string of sexual partners, or having never slept with anyone at all, it still won't change my character, it still won't change who I am, and it still won't make me more or less of a person based on the number of sexual partners I've had. 

Why is that women who have casual sex are viewed as sluts, and men who have casual sex aren't really viewed as anything.

I'm not trying to throw out a line of "OH MEN ARE SUCH PIGS." because I don't believe that. I don't believe that men will ruin the world. I believe there are inequalities towards women women, that men don't have to deal with that need to be corrected (and equally, I feel there is the opposite, but I will get to that, promise!)

It is getting to the point where even this girl on youtube, who is openly fighting out against sexism, is also then digging herself back into the hole she was trying to climb out of, by openly calling girls out on being 'sluts'.

Women who strip are not lesser people. Prostitutes are not lesser people. Women who dress 'provocatively' are not lesser people. Women who have casual sex are not lesser people.

Slut-Shaming is the act of telling a woman she is of less value because of how she dresses, how many people she sleeps with, and what she does with her body. 

Male strippers are not called sluts, men who sleep around a lot are not viewed as lesser beings. Men who walk around showing a lot of skin are not considered disgusting.

Once again, i'd like to point out that I am not blaming men for this, I am blaming societies attitudes towards such situations for this... because as demonstrated, there are many girls out there that frequently talk badly of other girls just because they prefer to have casual sex, I am not saying that I am exempt from this, because at some point or another, most people have heard of someone's 'reputation' and said or thought nasty things about them, because it is just the way we are taught to think, but my question to society, is why? Why do we think this way, why is it only now that the apparentness and unfairness of 'Slut-Shaming' is coming to light, and will it really make a difference in helping drop the 'slut' name?

Slut-Shaming demeans the people you use it against. Women who do those things are not lesser people and they are not sluts. Take notes.

Rape Culture

This is a big'un, so get comfy, if you're not already.

I have met people that claim rape culture is a myth, and that it is just something that 'Angry, Hippy Feminsists Who Grow Minges and Armit Hair Made Up To Blame Men For.' 

Let me just clarify, I do not blame men for rape culture, I do not place the existence of rape culture entirely on the male population. Rape culture is just that, a culture, something that exists in our society, amongst men and women. Rape culture is the reason behind slut-shaming on women by other women. Rape culture is when women aren't sure if it was rape because it was their husbands, so it was consensual, right? Rape culture is the reason men are too ashamed to admit they've been raped, for fear they won't be seen as 'a real man' any more.

Rape Culture is something that exists because we are still so unaware of it's existence, and so unaware of the effects it has.

Let me just run some statistics by you (Note some of these may not be 100% accurate due to the fact that many rape and sexual abuse cases go unreported, making it hard to get an exact number.)
  • 1 in every 6 women are the victims of attempted or completed rape.
  • 1 in every 4 women are the victims of sexual assault (what classes as sexual assault I will cover shortly.)
  • In 2003, 9 out of 10 rape victims were female.
  • Rape differs based on race, for example: 
    • White women: 17%
    • Black women: 18.8%
    • Asian Pacific Islander women: 6.8%
    • American Indian/Alaskan women: 33.1%
    • Mixed race women: 24.4%
  • 1 in 33 men (based only on an american study and therefore not applicable to all cultures) have experienced attempted or completed rape
  • However on a large scale study done in 2003, 1 in 10 rape victims were male
  • 15% of the rape victim population are under 12
    • 29% are 12-17
    • 44% are under 18
    • 80% are under 30
    • 12-34 are the highest risk years
    • However girls aged between 14 and 19 are 4 times more likely than to be the victim of attempted or successful rape and/or sexual assault.
  • 18% of girls aged between 10-18 have said they were sexually abused, and 8% of boys between this age had also said the same.
  • Every 2 minutes, someone in the US is sexually assaulted, not accounting for all the non-reported assaults.
  • Out of every 100 rapes, it is estimated only 46 are ever reported.
  • 2 out of every 3 rapes were committed by someone who knew the victim. 73% are by a non-stranger, 38% are by a friend or acquaintance, 28% are intimate to the victim, such as a partner, and 7% are blood relatives.

You begin to get the idea. 

So with these staggering facts, and rape being a very real and very frequent occurrence, why is rape treated (not by everyone, let me add.) so casually, like a small issue? A trivial problem in fact.

When I was younger, in high school and year 10/11 maybe, I remembered hearing the word rape used a lot, but never in a serious sense. It was used only jokingly, which of course, is where the process of desensitising us to the true seriousness of rape begins. The word rape was thrown back and forth playfully, similarly to the way the phrase "that's gay." was used to describe something as being bad (admit it, most of us have done it when we were younger, not realising it's repercussions, or who we may be offending by using a sexuality as a slur.) 

Often the phrase "RAPE!" was used when someone hugged you when you weren't expecting it, and equally, the idea of rape was used as a joke, I remember someone saying they were going to rape someone whilst acting out a character. Of course this wasn't a literal sense, but it made everyone, including myself at the time, laugh, because the combination of a funny character, and other funny things he'd said, made him easy to laugh at, and because our minds, not sensitive to the real concept of rape, found it easy to assimilate both rape and humour into the same category. 

Everyone knows the phrase "It's not rape if you say surprise first." I mean, of course, it still is. Of fucking course it is. The 'SURPRISE' doesn't count as a consent slip, and we all know this, and yet at the time, it was something we all found funny, or mostly anyway, and we never really knew why. As a result, we're desensitised to this concept of rape being a bad thing. 

It's not just this, it's many other things that excuse rapist behaviour.

For example... teaching women that rape is their fault because 'You shouldn't expect any less, dressed like that.' 'Well what do you expect, you were drunk, and all over him.'and 'You should have learnt self defence then.' We constantly teach young girls the message of "DON'T GET RAPED." But less frequently teach young boys "DON'T RAPE." So as a consequence, we are left with a society that condones rapists. Whilst I'm not saying every man is going to then go out and rape because they are not taught otherwise, I am saying that the likelihood of rapists going forth and raping, without even realising what they are doing is rape increases so much. Whilst a man may see a girl who was too drunk to say yes, she will later see herself as a girl too drunk to say no. Whilst a man who has slept with his girlfriend before may see her as being okay with sleeping with him again, she may see herself as being not wanting to sleep with him, but being emotionally guilt-tripped into doing it against her will, or worse, she may even view it as being not rape, because they're going out, they've done it before, so he has the right to.

We are told that if a girl dresses provocatively, she is asking for it, I can back this up with experience.

I have been out before, dressed in clothing that was not even what most would consider provocative, I have been out in dresses, corset styled tops, high heels, tight jeans, shorts and skirts, as well as just your ordinary run of the mill 'boring' clothing. But I have never done so to attract attention from people, I have never done so because I wanted to get laid. I have never done so to tease or entice guys, or make them want to fuck me. 

I have gone out in clothes that have flattered my figure, or made me look attractive, and there have been men that have taken it upon themselves to assume this means I want their dick, I have been inappropriately touched on more than one occasion, often by strangers passing who think that is just acceptable. I have been leered at openly and had derogatory comments made by men and even women because of it. I would like to clarify, that there is nothing wrong with looking at someone you find attractive, everyone, everyone has a bit of a perv on someone from time to time, but there is a difference between a quick glance at someone attractive subtly, and an all out leering session intended to make the victim very aware that they are being looked at. 

People have assumed for no reason at all, that I want all the dicks in all the land. People assume I dress however I dress that day to please them, and that if I am lucky, they will whip their cocks out onto my god damn face, and I will have the privilege to be in it's presence.

If I'm being perfectly honest, these days, I don't really look at someone and decide 'I WANT TO FUCK YOU RIGHT NOW.' The idea of sex just kinds of weirds me out (as previously mentioned) and I can currently function pretty fucking well without it. So anything I do, or wear, is primarily for me and me alone.

I don't want a relationship right now, I'm not looking for some casual sex, I'm looking for friends and just some fun stuff to do that doesn't involve sex. I'm not saying I will never have sex ever ever ever ever for as long as I live, but just right now, sex doesn't interest me. So I despise it when people assume that if I dress up nicely, or want to look good, it's because I'm seeking the approval of others, and looking for the dick. I'm not, I dress nicely because looking nice makes me feel nice, and that's fucking nice. Okay? I have no ulterior motive, and even if I do, it is still not anyone's right to just come up and slap my fucking arse like they own it. 

MY ARSE. DON'T TOUCH IT WITHOUT PERMISSION.

...

But in seriousness now. This idea of "SHE DRESSES LIKE A SLUT (see Slut-Shaming...) SHE'S ASKING FOR IT." is bullshit. 

Is all I have to say to that.

It doesn't matter what the situation, 'No means No'.

A person is not anyone else's property but their own, and trying to treat someone like that is disgusting. 

No one has the right to decide they can just have their way with someone else against their will. Male or Female, rape is fucking wrong.

And no, I know i'm not going to change the world, or societies views through my blog, but if someone reads this and realises that societies attitudes are not okay, just one person, then maybe I'll have done something.

It's still rape if their married, or have slept together before. It's still rape if one partner consents, but then changes their mind and the other partner refuses to stop. It's still rape if they're too drunk to say yes. It's still rape if they doesn't say no verbally, but physically tries to stop it. It is always rape unless the other person consents. 

There is no justification for rape. There is no 'Oh but they were too drunk to realise what was happening' excuse, there is not a 'But we've done it before, so why would it matter' card, there is no 'They didn't say yes but they didn't say no either' way out, and there is certainly no 'They were asking for it' bullshit.

It also is a big issue when someone has been raped, and should be treated as a real problem, and handled with sensitivity. It is not a shameful thing, or anything to feel guilty for if you have been raped. Men do get raped too, and it is not 'un-masculine' of them, and it is just as important that it is reported, and also it is important that male rapes are something we are aware of, because otherwise they will become, just as female rapes have become, acceptable. 

There is no excuse for rape. There is no excuse for victim blaming. There is no excuse for defending rapists, and there is no excuse for accepting rape culture to fit in when you know it is wrong.

Sexism Against Men

Please don't think that because this section is last that it is any less important, I just like to put the longest titled section at the end of the three tier titles, if you look back at my previous '3 point blogs' you'll notice that it's most likely similar there too :') Right... on we go!

I rant a lot about inequalities and unfair treatment towards women, and I know that 'Feminist' is often viewed as a dirty word, and that people don't like to refer to themselves as one, or recoil slightly upon hearing it, and the reason for this is that the general stereotype of a feminist is that they are all hairy lesbian women who hate men forever and want to live in a world without them. 

Of course this isn't the case, for the most part, feminists just attempt to bring to the light some of the inequalities women suffer (such as the whole teaching 'don't get raped' to girls but not 'don't rape' to boys, among others.)

I count myself as a feminist, because in essence, all feminism is, is the desire for a woman to be a man's equal, that does not mean I think men have it ultimately easy. There are lots of attitudes towards men that can do with changing. 

For example, there's the idea that women are their own bosses, they don't need men to tell them what to do, or who they are any more, they can't be owned by men like they used to be. They can get jobs and earn money and do what men can do, which of course is great...

However... in this world of strong independent women, there is still this concept of male to female chivalry, the idea that men must pay for the entire date, buy her anything she wants, and do as she pleases, because she's the lady, and he must be the gentleman. 

Whilst there is nothing wrong with nice surprises and kind gestures in relationships, I see absolutely nothing wrong with sharing the bill half and half, women sending men flowers, women opening doors for men, men and women sending each other small gifts for the hell of it. It's all good!

However it's not good when a woman who considers herself to be a feminist, and fight for free rights, still wants her dates and dresses and diamonds paid for entirely by her man. I think there's a lot wrong with that.

Equally, this video makes a valid point (except when he discusses feminists, because it's obvious he's only really been in contact with the fucking crazy ones, which sucks, but who knows, hopefully he'll meet some normal ones xD)

There are scenarios in which women have acted out against men and been praised where men would have been hated.

The example of the shop keeper who held her robber hostage for 3 days as a sex slave... 

First. How did she even manage to hold together her sanity long enough to get a job in a shop...?

Secondly, I agree with what he's saying, it's wrong, she raped this man for three days. Okay I don't condone burglary, and I applaud her ability to defend herself and subdue him to protect her shop, but it should have stopped there, she should have subdued him, and called the police to come and deal with him, not rape him over a period of three days. Yet as a society we applaud this behaviour because she's a 'strong and empowered woman.' but if a man did this, you know he would be thrown in jail.

That is another thing, people assume that men are 'always up for it' any time of the day or night, because 'they're men, they eat, they sleep, they shit and they fuck.' people make this assumption that men are stupid fucking creatures with no thoughts beyond "GIVE ME THA ASS."

With this assumption of 'All men always want sex, all the time.' it is easy to see how the concept of female to male rape is so easily ignored, because lots of other men see it as not really a rape because 'he should just be happy he's getting laid.' and lots of other women think a man can only be raped if he's sexually attracted to the rapist... of course that's about as true as the theory that women can't orgasm during rape, or that women can't get pregnant from a rapist attack. It is diminished as a real rape then. Men who are raped by women are often not taken seriously, but it should not be the case. More awareness must be raised about this. 

The fact that that woman was praised for cutting off her husbands penis because he divorced her... I am still in awe at that... like how did no one stop and think "This isn't funny, this is a mentally disturbed woman, and a man who might not ever get the use of his penis again, he may never have sex again, may never urinate properly again, and will probably never have children again, if at all." What was worse, was the fact that not only did people find it funny, they applauded her for her actions, as though it were somehow empowering to women! If he had attacked her and tried to rape her, this may have made more sense, but all he really did was divorce her, probably because she was a fucking nut case.

I mean, I read an article about a woman who was raped, and then forced to give oral, and so when he put his penis in her mouth she bit it off... which is complete fair in my opinion, because if you are going to misuse your genitals to harm other people, then you should no longer get the use of them, the woman never saw it as a sign of 'empowering women' she saw it as a sign of self defence... but the fact that this other woman only did it because her husband divorced her, completely not cool.

The sorts of women that do these things, and the kinds of women that applaud them, are the ones that give feminism a bad name, they are the ones that make all women look like double standard setting bitches, that make us look like we're only in it for a battle of the sexes. 

To those women, I gladly give you a gigantic 

FUCK OFF AND RE-EVALUATE YOUR FUCKING LIFE PLEASE AND THANK YOU.

I admit, openly, there are many things that are unfair towards men, many, and that if we are going to try to fight for equality for women, we can't do that without ensuring all the standards on the male side are equally matched to ours too, but I still stand by my statement made entirely from observing facts, other peoples stories and my own real life experiences...

Although we need to fight for male equality too, there is still arguably a lot more that needs to be dealt with on the female side.

I am not saying of course, that we take priority, but I think at least a large dent needs to be made into the amount of things that need to be fixed from the female point of view... of course the beauty of exposure via the internet, and other mediums, is that we can do both.

We can expose both the male and female inequalities and strive to correct both alongside each other, rather than focus on just the women, then move onto the men, just because it appears as though there is more to do on the behalf of women. 

A final disclaimer, is that these, of course, are all only my opinions (minus the statistics, that shit is legit!) and if you think I have missed anything important, or wish to add anything, discuss anything, or if i've at all said anything that may have offended or been disrespectful in any way, please let me know. Knowledge is everything these days, and even those who try their hardest not to be, can still be ignorant to certain things at certain times. 

(I understand also, i've no statistics on rape involving transgender people, or people not of a typically 'white middle class straight' stereotype, I am going based only on the facts I could find, but if you have any others, please, please let me know and I can add them :D Thank you in advance if you do!)


If you read all of this, thank you for reading, leave any comments you wish below, speak out against Slut-Shaming, Rape Culture and Sexism (against anyone, it's all bad shit yo.) Thank you for reading, have a nice day! 

Hayley (:


Sunday, 12 August 2012

Just A Note To Say...

I understand I have not been updating as I said I would, but I've had very little to report about my little life. Apart from being unemployed, barely making ends meet for the summer, anxiously awaiting exam results, occasionally seeing friends and sleeping. I've done very little worth documenting.

I also realise though this blog lists all nice things I've been up to, along side outfits and tutorials, etc etc... It seems very much to be lacking any true essence of myself, and I feel as though I've tried to make my blog very friendly and things like that, but it's beginning to sound less and less like me and more like some sort of television personality.

My laptop is currently in for repair (which is a right let down.) so I'm updating from my iPod, but as soon as it comes back from the repair shop, I'll try to get blogging properly again.

Maybe.

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

Goodbye Btec!

Hello to everyone reading, as promised, i'm making a post just for a special little chapter of my life. 

In the past two years, I have had the pleasure of working with some of the most brilliant, funny, annoying, ridiculous, insane, bitchy, talented (and occasionally dedicated and on time ;D) people i've ever met in my life.

My drama group now though, has finally come to it's conclusion, and it's starting to really hit home how sad i'm going to be to not be going back there, to never have that shared anticipation before a show with that group again. To never be stuck in a room with all of them again, half naked, attempted to get changed in time for the curtain call, whilst tripping over my own outfit, shouting "HAS ANYONE SEEN MY- Oh there it is... NEVER MIND" for the 4th time that night, constantly borrowing hair pins to pin mine back under some wig, or into some style, regardless of the fact that my hair openly rejects any style you try to put it in. 

I'm going to miss the buzz before a show, the stress during all the rehearsals, the constant rolling of our eyes every time someone is late or away. It's surreal to think we won't just go back and carry on as normal, and that hits me harder than anything else, is the fact that I'll never get to work with the people I was only just getting to know properly. 

There are so many people I would give a lot to keep working with, but unfortunately, it's just not in the cards.

However, I won't forget the memories i've made with this group of people... it began at 19, and then dropped to the 15 of us that could withstand the chaos for the full two years. I'll never pretend it was a pleasure cruise, i'll never pretend it was all fun and games, because god only knows it was a bloody nightmare half the time. Whether it was people never turning up, rehearsal rooms being full, lighting and music cues being missing or too soon, props breaking and costumes tearing, fights erupting and tears being shed, or perhaps swearing matchings and stressy teachers, forgotten lines and dramatic accidents, there was always something absurd going down within Btec 2010-2012. 

On our last day we each gave speeches of our time in btec, and whilst most were cut short by tears, I managed to say the only thing I have ever thought of btec. The utter and complete truth. Though, typically, in my usual style, I couldn't find the words to describe it, and so used the next best thing... A quote from Charles Dickens' A Tale Of Two Cities, though the quote is cut drastically shorter than the original, the simple sentence sums up btec more than anything else. 

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times."

It is truly the only appropriate way to sum up my time within this drama group, for it has given me moments I would never have missed, shows I wouldn't have traded for anything, and friends I will never forget. I am going to stop however, before I turn into too much of a cliche, and so with that, I will leave you with a series of photos depicting a huge portion of the last two years of my life. 

Now, just a warning, there's 108 of these photos... baring in mind, this is two years of my life. 

Warning over. Let it begin.




A secret Santa day :') no further explanation needed.

Rachel and I before our performances

The first time we ever sang Seasons of Love together. Which later became our group song, and the song we finished our final performance on. It was not only the first song we sang together, but also the last.

We're a talented bunch
Some more talent.


'Miss Va-J-J'

This happened on an almost daily basis.

Andy, one of our many drama teachers, looking all serious and stuff through the office window!



The most typical 'Drama' photo in existence. 

Andy being Caliban from Tempest, don't worry, he doesn't just walk like that.

btec demonstrate how to sit on a chair correctly


we named him Taz, but sometimes we call him Darren.

Andy looking formal for our 'auditions'



we have all at one point, tried to get in this box, and almost all of us have gotten hurt or trapped doing so.


the lying down game, different to planking, but still fucking pointless.

i wish i could explain this, but i can't.

i enjoy this photo and i don't know why

Mardeh!


showing our undying love for this man

AWKWARD BALLOON.

impromptu singing and dancing is a rule of btec


A room full of the AWKWARD BALLOON.

During Children's Play Day



GLITTER.

Two big bad bears, that weren't even in the same performance together!


I'd been jumped! Quite appropriately by a frog.

Who hit her head... told you we've had accidents.





Is still one of my favourite photos.


I like to think that James (far right) sleeps like all the time.

makeupskillz.




Our performance! Handmade baubles and a star! :D

Riiiibbiiit (the kids LOVED that joke)

knock knock

HEHEHE.






another lovely little laugh from the kids!

joe brought me some christmas spirit!

Frogs breaking down and rapping is the funniest, most innocently adorable thing you'll ever see.

BYE!

Our miniature audience!

I am quite the spectacle. 

For RND 2011! We all came as pirates!


Somehow i doubt this was related to drama.

Then again, neither was this.

James getting his skinny ass body out, making us all jealous. Or... dare i say it... "WELL JEL MATE."

...i'm not sorry for that. I'm not.

This is what you get when you sign up for btec.
And finally... panto, the one we'd all been waiting for.


Hook can play guitar, amazingly.

Tweedle Dee, Evil Stepmother, Prince Charming!

Beth, our technician, on the go, with the camera that stopped working! D:

Painting up my favourite non-btec-bteccer! 

Our very own Mad Hatter

Tweedle Dum

Abbie was probably the best choice for Alice we could have had.

Three of our teachers, and three women that have forever left the strangest kind of impact on my life, in the best possible way, of course. From left to right, Penny, Sara and Rachel (Pregnant fit to burst here, but she's now had a lovely little girleh!)

This picture, for me, sums up my time in btec quite well.

Just taking the chance to add that my mother made almost all of my costume, bless her heart and talented soul.

Cheshire Cat, White Rabbit. Our make up took FOREVER.

Cinders and Charming!

Some of the evil crew (and Little Red!)

A flattering shot :')

Queenie and Chessy. This will always be a favourite of mine.

Evil Step Mother and her lovely counterpart Fairy Gee

Oh my dear friend Beckie, one of my closest, whom i'd never have met were it not for Btec, we spent most of it acting like dicks, and also lovers.

Caption: "WHAT? NO. WE DON'T WANT TO BUY ANY. NOT TODAY. NO I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT JESUS EITHER. NOPE. GOODBYE THEN." 

We so gaytogether.

One of our last days, spent on the park

We don't know how this happened.

Or this


One of our last performances together, done to primary school children

One last photo (excuse my face, we were told to do a stupid post, but i appear to be the only one.)

Giving my 'speech'

Our schools motto is Dare To Learn, and there are lots of fake enthusiastic photos like this, so it felt appropriate to leave a homage to the place.

I am ending on this and I regret absolutely nothing.





I wish I was as cute and girly as I make myself out to be on this blog, but there's a terrible secret about me, and it's that i'm just so manly. 

Mind you, I guess some of the androgynous outfits gave that away... 

Anyway, if you made it through the photo spam, well done. If you made it through and you aren't in btec, double well done.

There would be some from Variety, but TAZ THAT LITTLE SHIT, hasn't uploaded them like he said he was going to do (and has been saying for the past 3 and a half weeks.) so that'll be another, much smaller post.

Thanks for reading.